Pleasurable Toxicity

We have managed to create pleasurable toxicity,

Because of you the past always sticks with me

I ain’t saying you did it, it’s what you meant to me

What your energy started to represent for me

If I ruled the world there would be no shared sympathy

People building bonds with trauma, like it ain’t the enemy

Hurt people holding on to pain like "ooh this what was meant for me"

Feel like I’m trying on my old clothes, “this ain’t fittin b”

I got a different style, my life calls for inner peace

Can’t be meditating with ghosts from the past haunting me

If I let it go already then why it feel like I can’t breathe

Is it because you're on my back, talking 'bout "when we gonna link?"

Damn, I see it now

Even when they ain’t around YOU around,

and I can’t blame you cus I thought you was amazing

Turns out you was just another agent, working for my subconscious matrix

I'm healing now,

I’m learning to truly grow you gotta leave some folks behind

Not to say they won’t be there,

but right now is not the time.

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In time lies the truth

In the beginning, you was my boo

now you is a bug a boo

Sully in Monsters inc, we was working then I got too comfortable

When I said I was leaving, you thought I had another boo

Never laughed so hard you mistaking me for your other boo,

When I go back to my world I still got love for you

We were good in the beginning but it wasn’t good enough to be dealing with

on a daily basis

face it, what we had was like a struggle meal

not the best but we embraced it :)

That’s why im still thankful for every moment I got to share with you

Thankful for freeing ourselves even if it ain’t what we planned to do.

I hope you can forgive me or atleast start planning to,

Cus in due time you’ll see why I had to do what I had to do

developing a trauma bond is never your fault.